In bloom

Give me room
to splay my petals
Grant me the space
to rise up tall
I need air
to blossom fully.
Rooted in earth,
I unfold to the gentle caress
of warm sunlight.

A beautiful flower
can only be admired,
observed with baited breath
to watch her open,
revealing her tender inner core.
She cannot be poked or pryed,
only gently coaxed with love
and in due time
she'll dazzle you
with the heavenly aroma
of her bliss.

Reclaiming our Goddesshood

Our society is not used to seeing and allowing for the empowered feminine vibration. Women in this world seek their empowerment by emulating men. They become hard and cut-throat business people, dressing and acting like men in order to feel some sense of respect or power. This is not true feminine empowerment. Women are told that their emotions are irrational and "crazy" and are seen as a weakness, when, in fact, that is one of our greatest strengths. It has been and continues to be quite a journey for us women to discover and embody our true power. The female body has been so over-sexualized in our culture that men tend to see us as an object to be owned and used rather than a sacred form for the goddess to work through. Patriarchal dynamics are so ingrained in our ancestral lineage that even if a man, in theory, says and thinks he supports equality between men and women he will still unconsciously play out patterns which subjugate, objectify, and suppress women into a societally conditioned female role. There is a whole belief system we are programmed with that supports these foundational beliefs that men are meant to be in dominant leadership roles and women are supposed to be seen and not heard. Especially men in america who have been genitally mutilated (circumcised) at birth have a particular disdain and resentment for the feminine who failed to uphold their trust in their vulnerable state at that very important first introduction to the world. This makes it difficult for them to trust women and be a truly supportive partner because they are still harboring this anger and resentment toward the feminine. 

I am learning that as women we cannot force or teach our men how to support us in our flowering. We have to go ahead and do it without them. We need full independence in order to discover our own strength and rise into the benevolent power of the Goddess. There's no way we can truly bloom if we are under the thumb of a man who is constantly, although maybe unknowingly, suppressing us and forcing us into an inferior female role. This is part of our path of empowerment, to disentangle ourselves from this type of relationship, to lift ourselves out of the submissive female role and to know what it is to stand on our own two feet and be unafraid to embody the totality of womanhood. The time has come to learn what being a strong female is really all about. It is time to look and feel beautiful, to love and admire ourselves and our sisters, and treat ourselves the way we would want a man to treat us; gently, kindly and with respect and reverence for this sacred female vessel. We must rise together as warrior women, empowering and encouraging each other to bloom into own own unique expression of the goddess. We must prove to ourselves and the men in our lives that we are competent leaders and co-creators, paving the way for the new paradigm with compassion and honor for all life, letting our intuition guide the way. Only from our own stance of empowerment can we seek to create balance and harmony in sacred partnership. We have to get our own ball rolling so to speak and stop waiting for a man to push it for us. It is time now for women to reclaim their birthright as the receptacle for the love, wisdom and power of the Goddess, the giver and nurturer of life itself. 

The Creation Process - Manifesting Your Heart’s Desires

Looking back over the past three years since I dropped out of college to chase my dreams, I have learned a lot about how (and more importantly how not) to create a life that I truly want to live. I am getting closer than ever to being in an ideal location, with a cozy home, a fulfilling job, with amazing food, friends and fun abound. So here is what I've learned on my path to creating an exciting, happy and fulfilling life: 

The first and most important principle for manifesting is to always work for the highest good of yourself and all concerned. You are not going to get anywhere by being selfish and the universe will throw it back in your face. Open your heart and feel compassion for yourself, others and the world at large. Think about how your success can contribute to the success of those around you and how that makes life better for everyone. Contemplate a better world, where everyone has what they need always, where there is no suffering, hatred, war or greed and think about what your place in that world would be. Are you a great musician, healer, dancer, artist, writer, thinker, builder, farmer, scientist, athlete, or organizer? Aligning your vision with a vision that betters the entire planet is a sure-fire way to get what you want with the force of creation as the wind in your sails. Ultimately a world where everyone gets to realize their dreams and contribute their passions is a better place indeed.

Next, set a clear intention for what you would ideally like to have in your life. Forget about money and worldly limitations and let yourself dream and fantasize about what would be truly fulfilling, what would be your ideal life. Go big! Include all the details and anything that may seem trivial. Maybe you want to become better at yoga, work with animals, live in the tropics, grow a garden, write a novel, attain perfect health, or open a juice bar. No dream is too big or too small. If you figure out what it is exactly that you want, down to the last detail, it is more likely to manifest in your physical reality. Spend some time meditating on these dreams, visualizing them, feeling what it would be like to have all these things actualized. 

Then, make a list of goals that you have for yourself, skills that you would like to acquire, or places you would like to visit. What realistic steps can you take today to get you closer to your dreams? Once you have this down, it is time to go out an take action! Sign up for yoga classes, go to the farmers market and buy all the healthy food you need for your new healthy lifestyle, start advertising your services, read up on gardening, book a ticket to the location you’ve always wanted to see. Action is a demonstration of our commitment and seriousness to make our dreams really happen right here and now. Consistency is important, so make sure to stay focused on your vision and weed out any distractions that keep your dreams from manifesting like T.V., mindless Facebook scrolling, or anything else that does not serve your vision.

Keep in mind you may have to let go of people, places, things, and habits that are not serving you to reach your dreams. Let these go with ease and grace realizing that people, places, things and habits that are more aligned with your vision will come to take their place. This is literally the process of a reality upgrade, so be prepared for your life to shift radically. If you end up manifesting something that is not what you desire, you can always go back to the drawing board and start over. You are not “stuck” ever, you can always begin anew and dream a new dream. This is how we figure out what we truly want. 

Happy Dreaming

With Everlasting Unconditional Love

Rising Fawn

Kambo Frog Medicine: My Experience

Frog medicine is akin to water energy. It brings cleansing, releasing, healing, replenishment, and purification.

It was my last couple of days in Asheville. I was informed a friend of John’s would be bringing Kambo and holding ceremony nearby. I had heard of it before as being a powerful detoxifier, and knew friends who had done it, but I wasn’t entirely sure what it was all about. I asked my trustworthy amethyst merkaba pendulum, a clear channel to my higher self whether or not I would participate in the ceremony. It swung to the left, indicating yes. When the practitioner arrived, he seemed somewhat uneasy, wide eyed, and withdrawn. He and the others warned me how intense the medicine is. Fear gripped me and the uneasiness of this wide-eyed frog-like man gave me second thoughts about participating in the ceremony. I didn’t even really know what the medicine was for other than cleansing the energetic field. It seemed like a lot of pain and discomfort to go through for such an intangible result. I left with Nick and we ventured to a waterfall far away from the city. I went against the guidance of the pendulum and drove off way out of town to seek solace in the mountains. As I was sitting in the stream, I got the nudge from above that I was meant to make it to the ceremony that night. I double-checked that it wasn’t too late, and when I heard that it wasn’t, I got the address of the land where it would be held and floated, carried by spirit the whole way there. The ceremony was being held at “RiverHeart Sanctuary”. I barreled down a rocky, grassy road all the way down to the river. I was suddenly in the middle of a very enchanted forest. When I arrived to the little campsite by the river, Z had just taken the medicine, his face was flushed, eyes red, with red dots in a geometric shape around his stomach. I decided to take a dip in the river before the ceremony. Just as Nick and I were sitting on the rocks by the water, a frog jumped in with a sploosh. Frog medicine was making its presence known. Hesitant at first, I thrust myself into the water, ducking my head under and emerged, cleansed and refreshed. John was next up for the ceremony, I watched nervously as he purged into the hole dug into the earth and went back and forth to the outhouse. When he finished, it was my turn to get my marks for where the burns would be. The practitioner tested to find my meridian and marked four dots from below my sternum down to my belly button. He lit a stick and burned four dots into the skin on my stomach where he had made the marks. I shrieked and fought myself not to push him away. Then came the jape. He blew a mix of sacred tobacco and herbs into each of my nostrils. It made me feel clear, alert and grounded immediately and served to guide the kambo medicine. Then, he had me drink a lot of water and placed the waxy looking medicine on the four burns on my stomach. At first I felt ok, then slowly I started to feel hot and itchy, my neck and face felt like they were swelling up. I prayed to frog medicine to heal me, cleanse me, release me. I felt the force of the medicine pushing everything out of my body in both directions. At first I thought I would have a bowel movement, but then the energy moved up and I purged into the hole in the earth. Then, the tears welled up in me and I started weeping profusely from the physical pain, but more-so the emotional pain that I had been carrying around. I cried and cried, not holding back, letting it all out as frog medicine honored my tears by cleansing my soul.  Another purge came, and then another this time even stronger and more forceful. I sat up, blowing my nose, wiping my mouth, still crying, but so so humbled and incredibly grateful. The whole time I was thanking pachamama, frog medicine, and my helping spirits for this experience. I released the toxicity, physical, emotional and mental that I had been holding on to.  As my portion of the ceremony was finishing, the darkness was falling on us and we packed up and went back to the house for the night. Halfway through the drive home I started to feel more normal again. The burns still hurt and my throat was sore from all the purging, but i felt this sense of renewal, of clarity, my energy field was indeed cleared of toxic energies and negative entity attachments. Basically, negative entities are highly energized thought forms of negativity, fear, anger, hatred, greed, gluttony, etc. When we energize these types of thoughts and emotions, they turn into what we call “demons”, but really they are not some unknown, outside boogeyman, they are the dark parts of ourselves that we refuse to look at an deal with which end up attaching to our auric field and draining our energy. I am incredibly proud of myself for going through with it. The burns on my stomach are a constant reminder of my dedication to my healing journey, my love for myself, and my own bravery, strength, and resilience. I definitely recommend this medicine to anyone on the journey to purification. It not only cleanses you physically, but also emotionally and energetically. It was an amazing opportunity to release everything that was standing in the way of my growth and expression of my true self. I feel lighter, happier, freer, without the burden of all that emotional, physical, mental and energetic baggage.

Why I'm Growing My Hair

As a woman living in this modern society, I have been subject to mental conditioning which impresses that having body hair is repulsive and not lady-like. Over the past few years I have been on a quest to completely deprogram from the mental and social conditioning that goes on in our modern society. My journey has led me to self-love and acceptance, to releasing feelings of guilt and shame and among other things it has led me to stop shaving the hair off my body. I have realized since that constantly removing hair is a state of war with the self. It's an act of fighting against natural process which is a never-ending battle to present the self in a way which is not its natural state. Part of the process of developing unconditional self-love is a process of acceptance: Acceptance of the physical body, our emotional, mental and spiritual selves, and ultimately our self as a whole being of divine light.

Since stopping shaving I have felt a greater sense of peace and love within and for myself and my body temple. I have ended the war with myself which goes on in every western woman for the sole purpose of reaching some unreachable societal ideal of beauty perfection. We are constantly trying to become something we are not and it creates a disharmonious relationship with our innermost self.
Another huge step in this process has been to have confidence in my body in its natural state, which does have hair, and have my partner love and accept me for that as well. Although it may have been a startling transition at first, it doesn't bother him whatsoever now and he doesn't consider me any less beautiful because I choose not to shave.
All in all I feel this is an important step for every woman to take in regaining the goddess power even if then you decide you simply like to shave. You'll be surprised at how liberating it makes you feel! But don't continue to engage in body warfare just for the sake of societal acceptance and that you don't feel you'll be seen as attractive if you leave your body to its natural progressions. We are beautiful perfect beings in the eyes of our Creator. To love and accept our bodies as a divine creation is the most powerful way we can give thanks for our existence.
Happy Hair Growing!

The News You Need

       Right now, there is unrest in nearly every part of the world. Many people are having big realizations about the way the world works and who exactly is controlling it. People are beginning to realize that our so-called elected officials and structures of government do NOT have the best interest of the people at heart and that the system is totally fraudulent. We are starting to focus more on what unites us as a people, rather than what separates us. We all want freedom, justice and happiness. We all want a safe world to live in for ourselves and our families and friends. We want peace. Ultimately, we the people hold the power in more ways than we can currently fathom. It is we who are collectively dreaming this dream, and just as we have created a nightmare, so too can we create a serene dream. Not only are we greater in physical numbers than "the powers that be", but the sheer mind power of the collective is enough to facilitate a great shift in our world. Now, humanity has made the choice that it wants to evolve. That means we are ready to take full responsibility for ourselves and our own lives and that we no longer need to abdicate our power to some outside authority. This is what we are now creating. We are in the process of something far more expansive, far more mysterious and divine than anyone quite realizes. We are in the midst of a divine plan in action. Millions of years of build-up has led us to this point: the shift into the golden age, the 1,000 year period of light, the moment we have all been waiting for! It is here, it is now so do your part to help anchor this new frequency and facilitate this new way of life for everyone on the planet.
   This is a time of choices and a time of extremes. If you have chosen the path of light, there is no room for swinging back and forth any longer. Every day, every moment, we must strive to stay in our highest state, to act as one with our highest selves, to love everyone we meet, to feel one with mother earth and to express gratitude. The time is now to rise to our highest calling and to do what we know deep in our being that we are here to do. As I said, this is a time of extremes, and as we are rising to the light, the dark is rearing its ugly head to be cleansed and released. Do not fret at the chaos and terrible darkness that is coming to the surface now. It IS a manifestation of our own inner shadow that is coming up in the outer reality in order to be acknowledged and healed so we can move forward.
     Take heart dear ones, the battle is almost won, the journey has just begun and we are in for a wild ride!
Peace to all
Love to all,
Light to all
Sat Nam

You Need To Know About GMOs!

         Imagine a world where one need not scrutinize every food label or decide whether to spend the extra money for food not sprayed with poison. Imagine no label such as "conventional" or "organic" exists because wholesome, toxic chemical-free food is simply implied. Now snap back to the reality we currently occupy, which is that genetically modified foods, processed foods, and chemical laden fruits and veggies are sweeping the shelves of grocery stores all across the world. Not a pretty picture we find ourselves in.
       The culprit? If you haven't yet heard of a company called Monsanto, you best pay close attention. Monsanto claims to be a "Sustainable Agriculture Company", but in truth is anything but. They claim their main objective is solving world hunger and creating more nutritious food, but instead they are meddling with nature, shutting down small farms, forcing farmers into unfathomable debt, poisoning our bodies, soil and water and taking control of our food supply. How do they do this? Their main avenue of control is through the seeds. They mess with the genetics of various foods such as soybeans, corn, and other Earth given gifts in order to claim intellectual rights and patent the seeds as their own. Then they get in bed with governments and authoritative organizations and buy up smaller seed companies, thus creating a monopoly. They can essentially charge these humble farmers whatever they want for their heinous genetics. Furthermore, they have been known to sue farmers for royalties after their crops had inadvertently been contaminated with GMOs.
        Monsanto essentially creates crops that are resistant to their pesticide called Roundup. Roundup is extremely toxic and the use of which is creating superweeds and super pests not affected by the chemical. Not only is it a non-solution for pests and weeds, but it also contaminates soil and runs-off into the water supply. At this point, our environment is heavily contaminated with glyphosate, a dangerous chemical found in Roundup. Glyphosate is a major cause of the health crisis humanity is currently facing causing diseases such as: Autism, Obesity, Allergies, Cancer, Alzheimer's, Infertility, MS and the list goes on.
      So, now that we know the cause of the problems we face, how do we take action to counteract what's happening? Just by reading this article and becoming aware of the issues at hand is the first step. Now that you are privy to this information you can take steps in your own personal life to make changes. You can seek out local, organic farms and support them by buying their produce. Not only does that help the farmer but it protects you from all the harmful effects of the GMOs. When you start making smart, more conscious choices, those around you will be inspired to do the same. Start the ripple effect! Helping to educate people about Monsanto, GMOs and the contamination of our environment is a huge step to take. The more people that become aware, the stronger the opposition to this giant corporate monster which is trying to steal our right to life. The best thing you can possibly do to alleviate this huge problem is to grow your own, organic food. By doing that you are directly taking control of you and your family's food security and access to safe, healthy, clean food.    
       It is time to get food supply out of the hands of dirty corporations and back in the hands of the people. Our food is our responsibility. We have been blind and foolish to let something so intimate as the food we eat to be outsourced to corporations who have no regard for human life or that of the planet. Knowledge is power, so now that we have the knowledge, let's take back the power!